catching up on lost time /\ C

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Noa wanted to say no, no they wouldn't. The reason being was, Noalani always worked five or six days a week without taking a break. He knew that he didn't even have to work there if he didn't want to. But to be honest, till he had met dakota it was the only thing he had to do or enjoyed. But now that dakota was here and going to work with him? who knows he might take the six days down to four instead. He was sure the others would love the extra hours or he could always get another bartender that wanted to work part time. It was an easy fix! Although he would figure that out later. For right now his mind was on something else completely.. like a robot. Really?

"I tell you what. if you can work three months and not slack off or quit, ill get you a robot." Did he want to? No. Would he? Yes. Why three months? To see if dakota would get bored of working and change his mind. No that didn't mean that he would think dakota wouldn't stick to working it was more so he figured he'd get tired of working for it and just change his mind. this way he wouldn't feel bad about telling him no and dakota would change his mind before Noa had to buy something annoying as a robot, or get jealous. That was a possibility. What if the robot was more fun to talk to them him? Strange wasn't it? But hey, he knew how Dakota's attention span could be at times.

Speaking of.. When dakota had brought up how he had imagined his life before now made him sad. Sure he knew that he shouldn't be. He knew he shouldn't take it serious but thats how he was. He took things to heart while dakota would joke around and just take everything lightly. He needed some time.. he needed to get away and just think.. So when he got up, excusing himself he figured Dakota hadn't wanted nothing since he never answered him. Heading to the bathroom he slouched his shoulders when he walked. Sighing softly to himself he let his hands slid into his pocket as he walked. Biting his inner gum he wondered if Dakota really was going to leave him one day to find himself a nice lady. Laughing a bit to himself it only seemed normal when he thought about it.

That is to say until he suddenly felt his arm being grabbed. Gasping in shock he looked up at Dakota. What was the reason for this? Groaning he stumbled to keep up. "Ahh! Be gentle with me, i'm an old man." He whined at the other when he was suddenly dragged into the bathroom. Just as he was about to ask him what was going on he found himself being silenced by Dakota. Flinching a bit when he heard the angry tone he couldn't help but to frown. Looking at Dakota with a uncertainty written on his face. Pay for someone? Like what Dakota does? Opening his mouth to speak he wasn't sure if he should ask. No he knew that if that was what he meant then it wouldn't cost that much. So he had to mean pay someone to have a kid right?

"Ah.. isn't that illegal? Buying a baby i mean.. how would that even work?" He was dumbfounded. Never in his life has he ever heard of someone doing that. Rather, never heard of someone doing it legally. "won't you go to jail if you buy someone's child?" He didn't mean to be rude or irritate dakota but he was in such disbelief right now that you could see it in his eyes. "Be-besides!.. i can't just do that with anyone. It's impossible for me it goes against my moral code as well as my body." He knew his face was red. He could feel his ears burning but he didn't know what Dakota was thinking. He thought he went over this before! "I.. i would be happy to compromise! But.. I don't understand! If a woman has a child she will want to have custody rights im sure." Yeaeeah, he was way old fashioned. He couldn't wrap his mind around this right now.

[attr="class","typelyrics"]Seconds, hours, so many days Every moment lasts forever Here I am still holding on Just when you think the road is going nowhere. They take you by the hand and show you There are no boundaries

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He loved the way Dakota was starting to say 'we' or 'us' now. Instead of just 'me' or 'my' It made him so happy to think that they was going to have a future after all. But right now wasn't the time! He needed to focus on other thing, he needed to focus on the big picture which was the matter that dakota might actually have preferred a woman over him after all. Which in all honestly he really couldn't blame him because any women would know or have more experience then him on things dakota liked. So standing there all red in the face he couldn't help but to feel embarrassed and slightly un comfortable admitting what he did. Sure he had no problem telling dakota that! But they was still in a store after all. Sure the hell didn't help when he was called durable!

Feeling Dakota's arms around him though did make him happy, made him feel like he was going to be forgiven for what he had said, for not being able to do what Dakota had wanted- wait what? If there was a legal way? "Of course." He answered simply, boldly. He didn't care to admit if it was with Dakota there would be no problem with it. From what Dakota had said.. he wanted to be a good dad anyways so he knew he wouldn't have to worry about him leaving and just leaving the kid. Besides, even if he did leave he'd still have a child that was running around that reminded him of Dakota and his love they shared, or once shared. "If you can find a way around it and not get us in trouble then i'd be more then happy to later.'

Was he going to mention that he was a bit excited about the thought? No, not right now. He'd cross that bridge if and when dakota had found a way. Purring happily he leaned forward to rest his head against Dakota's just enjoying the closeness between the two of them right now. "For as much as you want to be a good father. I want to be a parent as well. I have for long time now. I just never could make a connection with no one before. Luckily me it was with a hyperactive guy." He said sarcastically at the end, only to give a soft laugh to show he was mostly just teasing dakota for laughing at his ignorance on things like this. fair was fair after all! Hugging Dakota tighter he gave a soft hum as he added on last, "You're not allowed to be uncle though."

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The favorite huh? That made him laugh a bit. He liked the thought. He knew he wasn't all that fun. He hated moving more then he had to. He was perfectly content standing behind a bar for eight or nine hours and not move to much at all. he was happy laying in bed and watching t.v or reading a book. So he knew that he wasn't going to be the 'fun' one. Reasonable and lazy. Yeah that sounded more like it. "Ahh.. i can't even argue about that. I don't like putting to much effort into things." But then it hit him. "I'll be the fun parent. I'll totally teach the kids how to annoy you by saying 'do i have toooo?' Not to mention the only one that can cook." Sarcasm mixed with a playful taunt anyone? He knew Dakota probably could cook, but his attention span was not there.

impressions, thats what he was getting both times. Snorting a bit he placed his hand on his own chest. "But Koko, they need a parent that embarrasses them! The uncle is not going to cute it. Do you want the little Noa not experience the rudeness of a father that i do. How horrible is that! That poor child will never know the pleasure of having you in their everyday life." There, that would get his attention he was assure of it! If not he had another one that he knew would be a shot through the heart for Dakota. But for now? He was going to wait and see what Dakota had to say to him. If Dakota wanted to do some impressions he'd counter them with his sarcastic and guilt. What better way to counter that after all? Feeling a smile tugging at his lips he watched dakota. He'd much rather keep hugging-

Freezing a bit from the sudden kiss Noalani found himself looking a bit confused. Did Dakota just..Seeing that cute little nose wrinkle of his made Noalani shake his head and look away with a laugh. He wasn't sure what to say let along do! It was weird that Dakota had suddenly kiss him like that? It wasn't like he hated it! More so he still wasn't used to it, so it was just a bit weird for him. It sure didn't help when dakota wrinkled his nose like that, almost as if he wished he hadn't. Wait wasn't thinking things to seriously what got dakota to get mad at him a moment ago? Instead of thinking badly about it, maybe he could show Dakota it was okay. He was honestly okay with kisses.. just not ones like that. He'd have to show Dakota how he should kiss him next time he wanted to. Not a kiss and ditch.

Feeling Dakota cleaning his face he just closed his eyes like a child would, allowing the other to clean the sticky mess off of his face without a fight at all. Wait what? Surrogate mothers? He heard that somewhere before. Thats right, that was how gay parents had children wasn't it? Not that he was dissing or looking down on them, because frankly he was going to be one it seemed... More so just a honest statement. "Ah.. oh.. um... no. For as much as i believe every child needs a family. I wouldn't adopt a child and call it mine. while it's true i'd still adore them.. It wouldn't be the same sentimental bond as i'd have with a child that shares my DNA.. or yours." He added towards the end to make a point that he still think of Dakota's child as his own.

Shaking his head he gave a soft sigh when he watched Dakota's stance chance. Stepping in front of Dakota he placed his hands softly on the boys hips. Taking a stepped closer to him to their chest was mere inches apart. "If you want to know... I prefer a traditional wedding. That is a given considering how i was raised... but im no longer in the past.. the world around me is moving on. It's time that i move on as well... adapt to the newer time.. So Dakota Lane. When the time comes. I surely hope it's you walking down that isle , holding my hand as we exchange vowels. Before that can happen though.. there is something i have to ask you.. but a bathroom is not the place to ask it.. so how about we finish our treats and head out for now? I'd very much appreciate that." Leaning forward slowly he placed a soft kiss on the younger males cheek. Lingering a moment he would find himself moving up just slightly, placing a second, soft kiss on Dakota's forehead. "Shall we, Koko?"

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"technology is ruining the world. It's why everyone is dying so young how a days." He stated bluntly as if it was a statement to back up Dakota's earlier comment. He for sure wasn't going to let his children grow up with a phone attached to their hand and that meant dakota to. He even went as far as to say "In fact you're right so long as they stay at the house with use. Each child, as well as you, will be limited to a few hours a day on the computer. Two to three hours of entreatment. School work will not be counted since it isn't fun for the kittens. I won't let our kittens be brained washed. Thats what books and newspapers are used for." Laying down the law so soon? Yes because Dakota had to bring it up! So Dakota needed to know what he was in for later at least.


Chuckling a bit to himself when he mention his siblings Noa rolled his eyes. Thats fine, our kittens will marry off and have a spouse they love. While others find spouses they be lucky to stay with for a year. Our kittens will know how to take care of themselves as well as their spouses while others have to rely on others. Besides who needs mobster voices when you have the moves and elegancy to make anyone swoon over you? Your beauty and smarts, my elegancy and respect. No one could resist their charms. Their personality will probably be mixed with yours... so i might need to find something that distracts them and makes them focus." He teased dakota playfully, giving a light laugh to show him he was mostly just playing and pulling his leg since he seemed to want to joke around about things tonight.

Not that he minded! He just thought two could play this game. That is to say untill he went to hold Dakota. Wanting him to focus and see how serious he was with what he had to say next. He could easy compromise. He could do what Dakota wanted, so long as he could compromise with things as well. So he wanted him to know that he would do anything so long as it didn't go against what he believed in. The hand though made him smile softly at Dakota. Lacing his fingers with Dakota's he gave a soft hum when he said that. Nodding his head at the question that followed Noa couldn't deny that he'd be more then happy to let him have that sour junk. he tried it! he honestly did but sour was worse then sweet. way, way worse in his option. If they haven't already thrown it away." He smirked playfully at the thought.

Happily walking with Dakota he kept the brunette close to him, he walked a bit faster then he'd normally walk that was true. But really he wasn't the type to rush unless he seen a reason to. "I think if we have kids.. i want at least one male. You keep talking about your father. I never met mine. If you'd want. our second born we can name them after your father." Why not the first? He had to assure that he'd at least get two one way or another! Leaning over he nuzzled his cheek to Dakota's softly purring. "I will support anything you want to do. No questions asked." He stated boldly, proudly even. Hell it even got him to tug Dakota's hand, he knew the bowls would be gone so he walked over to the counter again. He promised him a lemon ice cream after all!

"How about instead of a picnic we go out shopping a while. i want to get you a phone and maybe a gift. Since it is a special night after all." He hummed softly thinking about it. What kind of gift would dakota like? he had to admit based off his stye he could probably guess a few things here and there. But it wasn't the same as getting something he knew he'd like. So a little shopping would be the perfect excuse to see Dakota's reaction when he was around certain things. After all he was very observant, unlike this poor little bunny.

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Noa loved when Dakota would whine at him like this. It made him want to smile. Shaking his head he gave a low groan. So rude. Listen to me when i speak." He whined at dakota, only to lean over and nuzzle his cheek. "Newspapers, t.v., and my personal favorite. Books." Thats right, reading was better then spending seven to twelve hours on a computers. shaking his head at the next part Noalani knew that if Dakota waited long enough he would have caught the fact he said he was going to buy Dakota phone. That he was going to make sure he had one. Did that mean it had to have the internet on it? No there was plenty that didn't have internet on it! Although, the kids wasn't around, not even in motion yet. So he wasn't going to be that cruel just yet.

Noa, you're going to be the best father. Hearing that actually caused his heart to beat faster. His face going red.. Just hearing them words coming from Dakota's mouth set his heart ablaze. He couldn't help but to get a bit excited. The only thing that could make him happier was the comment that came next. Have you ever seen the look in someone's eyes when the only reaction they had was pure excitement and just pure happiness at something you said? That was Noalani right now. His eyes shinned brightly at the thought. To think someone who showed little to no emotions on a daily base was this happy over what? The thought of a wedding? the thought of Dakota wanting to cater to his 'proper' wedding. The thought of Dakota picking a cake, even if wanted so much color while Noa would want a civilized and lovely one?

Noalani couldn't describe how that made him feel, or how many thoughts was already running through his head. He was so distracted thinking about their 'perfect' wedding. The way he could easily class both their ideas to make it perfect was actually giving him ideas. so shamelessly he wasn't paying to much attention to what Dakota was saying at fist. He was so lost that he didn't hear the technology question at first. What he did hear was journal. That snapped him out of his thoughts for sure. "What?" He asked in a confused tone. Did he just say he wanted journal? Tilting his head he looked at Dakota like he must have misunderstood him. "Not to be rude.." He drawn out a soft whine.

"Can you even focus to write that much? .. I'd rather buy something you could see and think of me.. For as much as i encourage you to write and actually put your thoughts on a page.. part of me wonders if you can stay still five minutes." Maybe that was a bit harsh but he was being honest! If Dakota really would focus to write that would make him so happy. Although if we was being honest he'd never know. He'd never go nosing into Dakota's stuff let along something so personal as a journal. When they finally got to the front he could tell the confusion in the ladies face that they was still there, or back. "A lemon scoop on a cone and a extra waffle cone." He sighed, seeming so bored just asking her.

Grabbing the cone with his free hand he let dakota get his own before he turned to walk off. Fully intending to go shopping and find something for Dakota. "What color is your favorite?' He smiles a bit at Dakota, nibbling on the cone since his last one was tossed away before he could enjoy it.

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Shaking his head at Dakota he didn't even answer his question. He found it to amusing. He loved this man that was for sure. He was just silly. Maybe he was serious. Maybe he really wanted to collect them for that sole purpose! But that was just a silly thought. Yet.. thinking about Dakota playing with their kittens like that strangely was the cutest thing in the world to him. "Fine.. but i get to make a captains hat out of them too." He finally answered. Maybe it wasn't really answering since dakota wasn't talking about hats but hey! He could try and say something random every once in a while. Playing pirates seemed... almost fun.. annoying and tiresome. But fun and a nice bonding activity for the family. One that didn't involve cords and wifi.

wait... what was with that? He could feel Dakota's good mood just disappearing. Frowning he tilted his head over to took at Dakota. Was... it something he said? He didn't think Dakota would actually take what he said to heart! The boy was always joking around and never taking anything serious.. Sighing heavily Noalani looked away. Great now he really did mess everything up. seeing that scowl Noa looked away at Dakota with sadness in his eyes. Nodding his head when dakota went on to talk. Tell him he should get him instead. The more he spoke the more Noalani could feel his heart sinking. Clenching his fist against his side Noalani didn't know what to do or say at the moment. what was this pain in his chest?

Was he really feeling that guilty for upsetting Dakota? did he really feel like he wanted to cry? No that wasn't the feeling. Tossing his arm up in front of his face Noalani found himself biting hard. blood flying from his wrist, his veins. It wasn't tears and regret he was feeling. It was anger and the the want to just die. That's what the feeling was. Hearing others gasping and watching him he could care less. He could feel his fangs burying as deep as possible right now. Closing his eyes he took a deep breath, trying hard to calm himself down. Yet he couldn't get the image out of his head. The look Dakota had made.. the tone he used.. damn it, this was why he refused to get close to others. Their emotions impacted him, his own.

Drip. drip, drip. Feeling the blood dripping from his chin Noa gave a low growl his nails digging hard into his palm. The smell of his own blood was to overwhelming for him. The numbness was actually relaxing for him. Clenching his jaw tighter Noalani actually feel to his knees, or rather squatted down next to his car. He never once pulled his arm away though. Let it scar, he had them over his body anyways. What's a new scar? Noalani was so lost in his thoughts, his anger. Not at Dakota but at himself that he didn't even care that he was shaking. Maybe he really was on the brisk of tears right now. He swore to himself that he'd never hurt someone he loved right? So why couldn't he be more considerate to Dakota? Why did he have to come off as someone that thought so badly of Dakota?

The more he thought about it the more upset he'd get. Pulling away from his wrist for a slight second he quickly sunk his fangs back into his wrist harder, making a new set of fangs on both the top and bottom. He might seem crazy, but this was the only way he knew how to cope with his feelings and the want to just disappear and die. He couldn't do nothing wrong! Maybe he was over reacting, but seeing that disappointed look, the scowled look.. It was to much for him.. Although he has went nearly four decades without emotions. So it was only his would be at an all time high at times like this.

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He loved dakota more then he knew. More then Dakota knew that was. So just seeing the way dakota looked at him over something he said.. He knew he hurt him. Hurting Dakota was the last and worst thing he could do in his option. dakota might be harsh on him. He might be a bit mean to him and maybe take advantage of his good and lazy nature knowing Noalani would never tell him no. But he loved every part of Dakota. He accepted every part of him. Even the bad things. What was meant to be a joke, what was meant to be a mere question of curiosity, seemed to be wrong. He knew as soon as it left his lips that it hurt dakota. So for someone like Noalani that was enough to actually break him. He might be physically strong but not mentally. Far from it actually.

At first he didn’t even hear Dakota’s request. He wanted to just tear his flesh. Hope to actually bleed to death. He might have made Dakota a promise. He might be breaking his promise right now but he couldn’t help it. He’d rather die then ever see that look again. He KNEW he couldn’t die from blood loss.. however that didn’t mean he had to accept it. He could put himself in a coma state. He was sure that was just as good as being dead. So as he sat that shaking and having a break down he couldn’t stop picturing Dakota looking at him like that, scowling towards him. Normal people would sigh and just try to move on right? well he wasn’t normal. He was just now allowing himself to feel. Maybe he really should have stayed emotionless and dead to the world. save dakota the heartache of being with someone as damaged as himself right?

So why wasn’t Dakota leaving him? Even if his senses was almost completely numb to everything he could feel the heat from Dakota’s body so close to his. Looking up at Dakota his eyes wide. A mixture of fear and longing in his eyes. He could feel his vision shaking. It was like that night! It was the same feeling he got when he killed Dakota. This feeling was so close to that night. He couldn’t focus on the face, it felt like Dakota constantly going in and out. Like he was just a flicker and nothing was real around him. Like the TV screen when it had a bad connection. His words felt like they was a million miles away. Was this what it felt like to have a mental break down? Was this going to happen every time Dakota gave him that look? No he couldn’t do it. He needed to get away. He needed to flee this time.

HE wanted to run, he wanted to just never look back. To let Dakota move on with his life and never have to deal with someone as suicidal and mentally broken like himself. Yet.. he had no will power, or he had no real desire to do that. His body wouldn’t let him move. Just like every other time he felt like he was losing it. This was a flashback to the lighthouse. His body done what it wanted, even if his mind had other plans. His body was as stuff as a stone. He wasn’t going no where and he knew it. More echo’s. He couldn’t make out nothing dakota was saying. it was like he was at the end of the tunnel and only soft muffles could be heard. What was he saying? Why was he flickering in and out? He needed to focus! He needed to regain some control over his mind before he really did lose it again and possibly hurt..

Blood. He smelt blood. He knew that scent. It was Dakota’s. Squinting his eyes together he forced himself to focus on Dakota. ”Ko..’ He mumbled, stumbled with his words against hi flesh. Pulling away he was having a serious deja-vu moment again. He smelt Dakota’s blood, he was feeling his hunger surfacing so much that he opened his mouth reaching over with his hands he didn’t even seem to notice one was bloody from his nails, as he gripped at Dakota’s shoulders. He smelt blood. No he smelt Dakota’s blood. The same blood that drove him mad the last time His body moved on its. Gripping at Dakota’s shoulders he felt every sense just die as he went to shove the brunette back against the body of the car door. His fangs piercing at the flesh.

Wasn’t this a bit to Familiar? Having Dakota’s on his back, technically, his fangs piercing into Dakota’s neck and tears streaming down his face? Because he felt so sick right now. His body ached hard from his mind finally catching up to him. The only difference was, this time he wasn’t drinking the boys blood. No. he just needed to be close, taste the irony sweetness against his throat. But he refused to suck. Instead his tight grip he had on the males shoulders soon loosen. His hands falling from Dakota’s shoulders to loosely wrap around his waist instead. Why.. why did he have to be so broken and do things like this? Hugging Dakota's tightly he refused to move his fangs or his arms right now. Just tasting the blood was slowly helping him come back to his senses. Realize what was going on around him.. As for the tears he couldn’t explain them. He just felt like crying right now.